overwhelmed much

If I ever existed in a state where I was not overwhelmed, I think that'd be a momentous occasion.

ERRRRGH

it's been way too damn long

I should be writing about a study abroad opportunity, doing a website, doing something, but I can't stop thinking and I need a place to write it all out. Hey blog. Here you go.

I'm more than halfway through my time here and that's really scary. I don't know. I don't want to leave. This place has done more for me than I could ever imagine. Being around people who care about me has been awesome, and honestly, I don't know what's in store for me in the future. I just kind of want to freeze time where I am right now. I have too much to do, but through it all, I'm seeing the beauty in this situation. Or trying very hard to.

I'm going to try to compress all my thoughts into one thing here:
- I need to finish all my work, so I'm gonna get off of this soon--and that's no different from usual. I have too much work to just sit back and enjoy my life sometimes. I don't know if I like being this busy all the time. Actually, I do. The answer is obviously no.
- I'm really worried about a friend of mine--but that's no different from usual. I just want you to believe in yourself because you're so amazing and I want you to see that. I pick my friends carefully and I wouldn't be friends with you otherwise. Not like you read this anyways, but true all the same.
- Squawk. LAWLZ. My phone has seen so much use lately. That's really out of the ordinary. Maybe I'm finally softening up. Whatev that means. Muahaha.
- Rawwwwr rawwwwr panda.
- Yes, I'm about the most coherent person you'll ever meet. Ain't that the truth.
- I don't know how much I want to deal with you.
- I wish I could just enjoy myself more. Is that such a crime? Responsibility is a bit much for what I can really do at the moment.

Freakin' hell, this sounds so schizoid. That is my mindstate, I guess.